My Story

I grew up in Amsterdam and was always a thinker. As a child, I often worried about big topics like the universe being infinite or what happens when we die. 

Unfortunately, these questions made me more anxious than curious. I spent many sleepless nights with a knot in my stomach.

Around the age of 23, my anxiety suddenly became more intense than ever before. It was clear that something had to change.

That marked the beginning of many years of exploring trauma work, psychology, and spirituality. What started as an urgent need eventually became my greatest passion. I had many beautiful experiences, and entire new inner worlds opened up to me.

Over the years, some of my most transformative experiences happened in Pantarei sessions—first in Amsterdam with Amanda McRae, and later in Berlin with Vered Manasse. In those sessions, I was supported in experiencing parts of myself I could never have reached on my own. I felt deeply seen and understood.

In 2020, I decided to become a Pantarei practitioner myself and enrolled in the Practitioner Training. It was love at first sight. I could hardly believe how perfectly Pantarei aligned with all my questions, intuitions, and deep longings. At the time, I was living in Berlin, and after completing the training, I began working there. I felt honored that people were willing to explore such important personal themes with me.

After some time, I was offered the opportunity to do a deepening year with Pantarei—the Pantarei Advanced Course. It was the first year the school offered this particular training, and I jumped at the chance. This advanced year helped me a lot in understanding and embodying the essence of Pantarei even more fully. I became a much better practitioner. 

I’m incredibly grateful that it’s my work to guide people with this beautiful method.

Since November 2024, I’ve been living and working once again in Amsterdam.

Me and my partner Kalliope in Plänterwald in Berlin. She is also a Pantarei practitioner.